Hi everyone and Happy Easter!
My MRI scan took place on Friday, I wish I could say that it all went to plan but unfortunately it couldn’t have gone more wrong. I took along my camera and my mum was prepped to video it to show you all the process of what happens but she wasn’t allowed anywhere near.
As you know if you read my last post I am extremely claustrophobic (I get really panicked if I get stuck in a dress!) so when I learnt that I had to have an MRI scan I was dreading it. My mum called the hospital to get a little more information on how the scan would go etc, I was told I would go in to the scanner feet first so my head would be out, I could bring a cd to listen to, I could bring my own dressing gown to wear and that generally my phobia would be taken into account.
When we arrived at the hospital I was taken through quickly but my mum was told that she had to stay behind in the waiting area, I was given a hospital gown and told to put it on. When I was taken through to the scanning room I was asked to take my glasses off and leave them on the table, the technicians did not help me to reach the scanner. My eyesight is terrible so it left me wandering trying to find my way. Once I reached the machine I was told to lay down head first, I questioned it and they said that I could go in feet first. They did ask if I was claustrophobic, I said yes I was extremely. Before I knew it the needle was in my arm, headphones on (no cd for me to listen to), strapped to the bed and I was making my way into the machine.
I soon realised that I was all the way into the machine. I just shut my eyes and tried to control my breathing. I was so frightened, it might be hard for those of you who do not suffer from claustrophobia but honestly there is nothing I am more frightened of than being contained in a small space being unable to move. The machine started, the noises although loud did not bother me as I thought if I could hear it working the sooner it would all be over. I would like to take this opportunity to thank all of you who tweeted me with messages of support because honestly you gave me so much strength during the scan. I honestly don’t think I could have done it without you all. I pressed the assistance button when I really couldn’t cope anymore and could feel a panic attack settling in, they answered and told me I had around 4 minutes left which meant that I had been in the scanner over 45 minutes. I was proud of myself and kept thinking that it wouldn’t be long in my head.
When they came into the room and took me out of the machine I was very pale, shaking all over and crying. I just wanted my mum, they took the needle out of my arm carelessly which has caused bad bruising as you can see;
I know that the scan itself would never had been a pleasant experience but honestly the treatment I received was awful. Since the scan I have been extremely anxious and can’t go to sleep without a light on, this is passing but I think this could have been prevented with a bit of care from the technicians. I am going to write a complaint to the hospital as I feel that the technicians conducting my scan could have conducted themselves an awful lot better. I have been in and out of hospitals for 10 years and this was the worst experience I have ever had.
I’m sorry that this wasn’t a more positive post but I thought I would update you all as to how it went. I would also like to thank my Mum, Dad, Caroline & Matt for helping me through it.
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